Things I Will Miss

That voice, that high-pitched voice that lets me know you are around
Those eyes, those ostrich-like eyes they jokingly say, that lets me peek through your emotions
The way you brush your hair with your fingers and pout your lips afterwards
Those petty arguments that we had, how you prove your point and you rationalized your irrationalities
The text messages we exchanged that you let your girls read
That infectious laugh, crazy how it makes my heart giggle
And those coffee moments and treasured conversations

I'll miss them all...

I'll miss you...

The New Horeb

The House of Horeb just got bigger. We have been praying for new housemates who are willing to undergo discipleship and leadership training and the Lord granted it, we are now eight! Initially, we were actually praying for three new guys but God who is always generous, surprised us with five new brothers.

Last night we talked about our expectations while living in the training apartment set-up. We talked about what training means to us. And all agreed that the House of Horeb will be a place of training for Godliness, Discipleship and Leadership.

I'm overwhelmed with this new undertaking. I'm both excited and nervous. The responsibilty at hand is a heavy one, but I'm willing to spend my life and be spent for God's glory. I am fully aware of my weaknesses, vulnerabilities and self-doubt. But at this point, I'm just waiting for God to unfold his mighty working right before my eyes, as he has always been. I'm just taking one day at a time and celebrating God's faithfulness and mercy that are new every morning. I always remind myself that our ultimate leader in our "home" is God and I'm just a Kuya who's main business is to obey God, and by His grace, be an encouragement to the younger guys to press on and "keep the good fight of faith".

I was really encouraged yesterday morning when one of the guys initiated in preparing our breakfast. With a scrambled egg and a can of corned beef for eight guys, it was the best breakfast. It was a confirmation from God that I'm heading on the right track.

How Do I Deal with Forgetfulness?

By the time I'm writing this, I am so pissed because I was supposed to go to the bank to encash my check and before I knew it, I left the check in my office. I was like two minutes away from the bank when I found that out. I'm so frustrated with my self!

This morning, I was looking for the book I bought the other day. Darn, I can't find it! Then flashback... I left it in my friend's house after we had sundae and fries last night.

I remember my gradeschool teacher who has this line everytime those-brain-cells-that-are-supposed-to-make-us-remember-things fail, "Wag nga kayong hawak ng hawak sa likod ng pagong nang di kayo nagging makakalimutin!". Sounds funny but I almost want to believe in the myth. As far as I can remember (ok, should I still be trusting my memory in this?), my memory lapses became perennial after I once touched a turtle's back. An officemate once told me that forgetfulness is caused by stress and lack of sleep. I really don't know now. What I know is I'm already getting into several troubles because of it.

A week ago, I had a heated discussion with a friend because she was giving me a sermon about my being forgetful. The argument went a long way, but it all started because I left my key inside our apartment and I can't find my housemate who has a dupe. It ended up with me giving her a "sorry cake".

I remember also an instance when I left my wallet in the office on a friday. I was supposed to have an operation the next day (I had a lump on my back, a benign cyst, something like a coagulated fat... hehehe) and my money for the operation was in the wallet. I had to go back to the office at 10:00 PM. Good thing, there are students who are doing an overtime for their theses in our lab.

In another time, I forgot my flashdisk where I saved my lineup for our youth fellowship. I was the worship leader at that time. I realized that I left it the office, ten minutes before the fellowship started.

I'm shaking my head in disgust right now.

Is there a cure for forgetfulness? There's this old adage in our province, "An bulong sa limot, hanot" (The cure for forgetfulness is spanking). I feel so hopeless and frustrated...

Too Lazy To BLOG

Updating my blog is a struggle. I'm too lazy to put my fingers on the keyboard. A lot of things happened lately that I initially planned to write about. Like our the holiday in Hundred Islands, which I had so much so much fun! The movies I've watched during the long weekend. The 11 PowerPoint presentations I made for my boss na kinarir ko ang paggawa ng background templates. And some thought running in my head...

Sa sunod na nga lang. Tinatamad na naman ako.